But for those who trust in the LORD will find new strength. They will soar high on wings like eagles. They will run and not grow weary. They will walk and not faint. (Isaiah 40:31)
It’s been a couple of months now since i’ve had the time to post anything. I have two toddlers running around the house with a case of the trouble twos. You can imagine what I have been going through. Nonetheless, all the love and lessons i’ve soaked up in the past couple of weeks have been well worth the chaos.
I suffer from depression and anxiety, and these past few months have been sucking my soul dry. I’ve fallen behind on a ton of things; To name a few: being the best mother I can be, being the good wife my husband deserves (because the Lord blessed me with such a patient, humble and kind man that deserves the best I can offer). Through this struggle I haven’t felt the will to seek God. I know, how horrible does that sound. I just haven’t felt Him close to me at all, it’s caused me to fall behind on prayer. The most important thing in a Christian’s life. Prayer. Everything has just seemed to be going so wrong.
Well my husband (may God bless him even more for being such a sweet man) decided to take us on a trip. Just us and the boys. Away from all the chaos and problems etc. Saturday morning he wakes up a bit earlier than usual. Helps pack things for the boys and to my surprise even got my stuff ready to go. The day was starting off on a good note. Well, once we were there we unpacked and headed off into the big blue. I can’t explain the calm I got from being out at sea with no one and no problems around us, just the big beautiful blue sky the sun, the breeze the water and all the trees (you catch my drift)…
Well watching my boys and husband enjoy that happiness that bliss of being together having one anothers company doing something we all enjoy, well that feeling just slapped my eyes wide open.
I mean how can I describe that feeling? I just know something clicked that instant in my being. I was realizing that I am truly truly blessed and loved beyond measures. I had been given the opportunity to see with spiritual eyes the great glory and kindness and mercy and love that God invests in my life every single day. Through my husband, through my children, through my breathing. I mean it was something many can’t and probably won’t even understand. But I do and that is all that matters. I had hit rock bottom and even with my lack of seeking the Lord He had such great compassion and mercy on my life, that with love He showed me He was still there. With love He put the need of having to take a trip in my husband’s heart guiding him to lead us where I had to be. So that with love He could make me feel His presence again and be filled with His Holy Spirit… with such great love and compassion. How great is our God? Honestly, how great is our God?
Nothing on earth, or the heavens, nor under the waters, is there anything nor will there be anything or anyone greater than He. I am thankful and I am humbled. Blessed be the Lord Almighty whom has had such great mercy and love for me since the moment He knew I would exsist. I know He will perfect His work on me. Romans 8:28
“And we know that all things work together for the good of them that love God, to them who are called according to his purpose.”